Stuck in a Moment!
This morning I had the opportunity to get out early into the beautiful cool air for a long walk with my Dog Rudy! It was a rare morning, I was not on a tight schedule having to look at my watch every few minutes to see how much time I didn’t have or check my phone to see who needed me! My Husband was home with kids, on this Saturday and no one had to be anywhere until 9:30. (2 glorious hours to just be)
I rounded a corner and simultaneously came across a beautiful view of flowers in bloom, geese flapping their wings towards flight out of the water as my dog tried to catch them and the U2 song “Stuck in a Moment” came across my iPod!
Listening to the words: “I’m not afraid of anything in this world, There’s nothing you can throw at me that I haven’t already heard, I’m just trying to find A decent melody A song that I can sing In my own company”! , struck a chord deep with in me!
I often use music as a way to process emotions and as I listened I thought of all that the world had thrown at me in the last 5 years. Next week will be my 5 year anniversary since being diagnosed with breast cancer, and my son being diagnosed with Juvenile Diabetes. I was stuck in a moment for several years, scared, ruminating my son’s and my future, worrying daily about every ache, pain, and threat to our well being. There were months and months where I was not well physically nor emotionally.. I was stuck!Today I am well and it brought tears to my eyes how blessed I am to be out in the beautiful air where I was able to take a deep breath, see the beauty of nature, hear music and go home to my healthy family just waking. I was so emotional as I thought of all the time I wasted worrying and living in fear and missing out on the simple things in life as I was stuck in a LONG moment.
Yesterday I made “Resurrection Rolls” with the kids, it is a fun and simple recipe that illustrates Jesus’s Death and Resurrection in each step.
The premise is to prepare Jesus’ body (marshmallow) then place in a crescent roll (the tomb) then bake and when you open the roll the marshmallow is gone and this symbolizes the Resurrection or “He is Risen”. As I reflected on the Resurrection I felt the opportunity for us to “rise” each day out of the ashes, out of our “moment” instead of staying stuck. Jesus did not stay stuck ruminating on his problems, getting stuck in his head on all the wrong done to him. He rose from the Dead (symbolism again) and we have that opportunity each day with our friends, family, and communities to start fresh and come out of our “moments” and rejoice in the beauty of the day, and completely “Let Go”.
My Dear friend said to me the other day “Moms are such Rockstars, smart, efficient, and great multi-taskers, they just let too much get in their way (in their heads) to be able to move forward and execute”. Such wise words as I have done the same in my past and wasted so much time in fear. Today as we prepare for Easter I pray that all of you Graceful Mom’s can get past your ‘Moments”, get unstuck and move forward, rise from the ashes and be joyful.
Like Bono Sings at the end of the song: “And if the night runs over, And if the day won’t last And if your way should falter, Along this stony pass…It’s just a moment This time will pass”!